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brother to the dawn

all i know is
it was sunday
and this nigga
my bad
this strong black man
introduced himself to me
and i was like
god damn
and my girl was like god damn
and my friend didn’t see him
but we pointed him out
and my friend
was like god damn, too

all at once
the limitless possibilities
played themselves out on the
drive in of my mind
what if i went there
instead of here
pledged that
instead of this
went here
instead of there
zigged instead of zagged
what if…

what if i were brother to the dawn?

i would stay up all night
watching his chest heave
up
and
down
and
up
and hearing his light snore.
begging to illuminate
his face
with my soft light

but he is night
and a shadow persists…

i try to think of
ways
to wake him up
stealthily
i pretend to be his blanket
tickling his skin
but the shadow…
i am an owl
but instead of hey…hey
he hears who…who
and hugs the shadow tighter

fuck that shit,
i’m brother to the dawn
i can wake the motherfucker up
and cancel this shadow out

…bitch.

but the shadow turns over, smiles at me, then goes back to sleep.

…i ain’t no home wrecker
i realize
as my father’s chariot
threatens to burn across the
sky without me

i leave
with vivid images
of lovemaking seared into
my mind
images
that i didn’t need to see
but needed to see
to remember that the fates are
cruel

i’m the brother to the dawn
too late for midnight
too early for sunset
and resigned to my fate

Posted by Rashid on June 18, 2005 11:28 PM