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This is the thing....

I don't feel like writing about how well my signing went at the step show tonight, or who I met, or how thankful I am for all the people that stopped by and showed love, or helped out in some way. Those folks will get thanked off the blog.

Nor am I going to address the emails I've been getting about "my little love series, tee hee" as a 'friend' termed it. Hi, this is my fucking LIFE here, not a "little love series, tee hee."

The thing is that my life is upside down right now, and even more so as the days go by. The Lazarus stuff is GREAT! Work is GREAT! Home life is GREAT! I couldn't be happier.

And yes, there were lots of attractive men where I was tonight. Even fine Iotas! I am like damn, when did Iotas get hot?

Anyway....this is my outlet. You will not find sanity in this blog.

I keep typing and retyping this paragraph.....I guess to an extent, I shouldn't sink to the level of the slime I've been attracted to lately. It's tough, though.

I'm just so glad that my eyes are continually opened to what's going on around me. Shit is crazy...shit is wild. I am like....damn, for really?

When HIM wants you to be with someone you deserve...shit is wild.

When you want someone who hops from abusive relationship to abusive relationship....

When you realized you've been the victim of yet another black man fetish....

Or Alpha fetish....

When your blog entries become "little love series'".....

Shit is wild.....I am like whatever....

One of my coworkers always says "This is pure insanity."

This shit really is.

I have very few REAL friends. I think that's normal. But it's wild. It's like....I don't think it's unreasonable or unrealistic to have friends that you never argue with. I NEVER have arguments with my friends. Seriously. My friends are very intiutive, sensitive, all that.

I am just tired and rambling now, but I still have so much swimming in my head... sex.... romance.... men.... relationships.... whoredom.... fetishes....

And more that I won't say because I don't want to believe it.

Posted by Rashid on September 25, 2005 12:32 AM