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intimate moments

ugh. in another mood.

I was talking to an online friend of mine on the topic of putting a dude behind you once and for all. and I told her all I really knew about was time and distance.

lord knows.....I still love the man I knew last fall. no matter what was said, no matter how hurt I ever felt, and no matter what I said in reaction to anything that..... I still love him.

he doesn't love me though. positive of that.

intimacy is a blessing, and there were some couples on showtime that were making my heart ache. like damn, will I ever have that? like, in my twenties?

then.... just got off the phone with montre, who is straight, but was mentioning how there seems to be so few gay black relationship role models, and how gay black relationships don't last.

sigh. although I did talk to him about how I have seen successful gay black relationships, it was the lack of visibility that was the problem.

alas.... I still felt sad.

I'm giving up on this entry cuz I'm so tired

Posted by Rashid on August 14, 2006 1:05 AM